Mind on a break

trying to process through some things, but it always comes down to this:

Luckily, I'm not too bright.

I know it's over...

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head

And as I climb into an empty bed

Oh well. Enough said.

I know it's over - still I cling

I don't know where else I can go

Oh ...

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head

See, the sea wants to take me

The knife wants to slit me

Do you think you can help me?

Sad veiled bride, please be happy

Handsome groom, give her room

Loud, loutish lover, treat her kindly

(Though she needs you

More than she loves you)

And I know it's over - still I cling

I don't know where else I can go

Over and over and over and over

Over and over, la...

I know it's over

And it never really began

But in my heart it was so real

And you even spoke to me, and said:

"If you're so funny,

Then why are you on your own tonight?

And if you're so clever,

Then why are you on your own tonight?

If you're so very entertaining,

Then why are you on your own tonight?

If you're so very good-looking,

Why do you sleep alone tonight?

I know...

'Cause tonight is just like any other night

That's why you're on your own tonight

With your triumphs and your charms

While they're in each other's arms..."

It's so easy to laugh

It's so easy to hate

It takes strength to be gentle and kind

Over, over, over, over

It's so easy to laugh

It's so easy to hate

It takes guts to be gentle and kind

Over, over

Love is Natural and Real

But not for you, my love

Not tonight, my love

Love is Natural and Real

But not for such as you and I, my love

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my ...

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head

Oh Mother, I can even feel the soil falling over my head

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head

Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my ...

New year's day

And this is how I came into the new year.

I'm ready for it.

deleted blog

I've never deleted a blog before...

Perhaps if you squint real hard, you will see the e-trails it left behind.

Since you all know how I feel (really - you know you do), I'm sure whatever you see in the electronic residue will leave you warm.

And yes, just in case, "I love you."

And the image just appeared...like a miracle

Some people see Jesus, some people see the virgin (eh-hem) Mary, I see smiley faces... On my Bananas. Of course internet was down all day due to the flooding in sacto and why does work internet come from there? It's stupid, but I have new pills and smiley faces in my bananas... I'll take it as sign of good things to come.